Why Are People So Filled With Hate

leaving the path of someone who you have loved is such a unique and beautiful experience. its easily one of the hardest things ive ever experienced but once its done its so pretty how they stay with you... my favorite actress, who i was introduced by you, the crochet stars leftover from the christmas gift i sent across the world to you, your interests that are still fresh in my brain, the book you lent me that i never had the chance to return

is it a thing when i look in someones eyes and i can SEE their love for me in it or am i just viewing my love for them in THEIR eyes

remembering someone’s name after a single mention, listening without interrupting, being funny without being mean, being unafraid to chase your passions, holding yourself accountable, being kind without being a doormat, compassion, being open to learning even if you already know so much, taking risks & making mistakes

me killing myself because i dont know what to do with all my love now that i cant give it to her

even though it sucked it got me to the amazing people i have in my life now it changed my mindset it allowed me to be more understanding of others it gave my sympathy it let me love

i was only 12

what if i just pulled my brain out like ramen noodles and stomped on it until it didnt exist

having so much love in your heart is beautiful and amazing right up until you’re alone in your bedroom clutching at your chest and whimpering like a wounded dog