When Is It My Turn

Very much into hilson fanfics where the og ducklings are just casually in a polyamorous relationship in the background bc it shows how completely fucked up hilson is

I’m losing my mind

a wonderful ao3 author note

Life if bro lived close by

look at these two characters…wouldn’t it be a shame if they…tenderly rested their foreheads together…

Such a fuxkin mood bc I don’t know what the difference between enjoying an activity versus dreading it really is…the only way I can tell the difference is by whether or not I get a stomach ache

Wait wait WAIT

When y’all experience emotions- You are able to know how you are feeling based on an actual ‘feeling’?

It’s not just drawing from context clues?? because the way that I understood it was:

-I am doing an activity I enjoy, I am not experiencing any physical signs of distress, therefore I probably ‘feel’ happy-

But no? Emotional feelings are actual specific feelings? Separate from physicality?

“Identifiable through vibe alone” as my friend so eloquently describes it

“Run!” I cried, cryingly! “It’s Geoff the Killer!”

“That’s right,” The pale freak snarled, brandishing the Knife, “And I’m going to— wait did you just spell my name ‘Geoff’ what the hell is wrong with you”

I spent the past 2 weeks in a feverish depressed state I haven’t felt since before I started medication and over the past few days that has been cured by the following (in no particular order):

1) Tomadachi for the switch being announced

2) The Crane Wives tour that I got tickets for

3) Hilson content on my dash (I’m not even that serious about House MD)

4) Seeing my friends :)

5) Will Wood and the Tapeworms Tour

6) Getting into my dream grad school with a partial scholarship

7) Visibly Queer Androgynous Baddie called me hot

Thank u that is all :)

The most intimate experience I’ve ever had with another person has got to be when my friend and I drove around for over an hour and she just patiently listened to my rant about House MD and Hilson even tho she had never watched it and it also wasn’t the type of media she engaged in. And half way through the drive she started constructing a playlist specifically of songs that were so Hilson coded “for inspiration” and once there were a few songs on the playlist we started taking turns explaining what exactly in the song FELT Hilson coded and it’s the closest I’ve felt to being understood

Being an ugly girl with a crush feels like being a sex offender