Late Valentines With My Girl Ottessa And The View Of A Rainy Day 🤍 🌧

i feel like clarice lispector broke me and saved me at the same time. viscerally affected by each sentence from 'água viva'.

Real ones will get this. 🤲🏼

I was so happy the november depression didn’t hit me at all this year

and then

the end of december comes around and brings the trinity of doom: melancholy, anxiety and existential dread

read 'infocracia' with wine yesterday night and finished 'the right to sex' tonight which was good but not great. my plans are to read a bit more of 'lolita' or 'crime e castigo' tomorrow and find a better mindset, cause honestly i've not been feeling good lately.

hope everyone is having a good time in life. 🤍🌧

continuing this one today! i'm still on 10% but really enjoying it. it's funny and brings some good questions to think about.

other than that, i apply for next semester's classes. hope i'll be accepted at all of them.

i'm trying to think more about the projects i'd like to work on.

i hope it rains today. 🌧

hi again! back here pretending i didn't say i'd be posting more and then disappeared. i hope there's someone here still, if there's not it's ok, let it be just me and my own tumblr shadow.

BUT if there is, i hope you're ok. been a long time, alot happened, it always does.

i went to the movies to watch one of my favorite movies of the year: 'ainda estou aqui' (i'm still here) by walter salles. it's really nice to see a brazilian film doing so well internationally.

there's a promo going on and i bought these books over ☝🏼 there. as always, camus, clarice and byung-chul han; then, ivan turgueniev, woolf (i've been wanting to buy for a long time), and today i received a dostoievski book too 👇🏼!

unfortunately 2 weeks (maybe?) ago, i got hurt on my left foot. i tried to get better but it didn't work; so yesterday during our very first game in the competition, it got worse. i had to go to the hospital. the result is me not allowed to put my left foot on the ground and jumping around the house on one leg only.

and to wrap it up, i literally just started 'the substance'. don't have anything to say yet cause i'm 10 minutes in - but the photography is insane! really really good. i hope the hype is well deserved.

to all of you, the ones reading or not, i wish you peace of mind. have a real nice december! 🤲🏼🩶

[dear bird,

protect me.

the fall is too high. catch me.

i'm not ready to fly. eat me.

in your inside, take me.

don't leave me, so i can live in you.

see through you

what i can't be

be for two, for we, for i

and drown deep above

[in the vacuum.

jales.

started 'água viva' today. my first clarice! her writing is wow, i've been annotating a lot. so many thoughts already. just wild!

i was gonna go for run today, but gave up, it's been one of those lazy days. probably do some yoga before go to bed.

tomorrow i feel like it's gonna be a good day. (probably won't though) - let's keep it positive.

that's a goal: be more positive! 🤍🌧