Is It "acting As If"?

hi!! i’m this anon, https://www.tumblr.com/lains-reality/723844364791676928/hi-i-hope-youre-having-a-wonderful-day-youre

about the difficult circumstances :)

i’ve followed your advice, and just rested. whenever i had moments/situations that brought up stress, i began to exercise this feeling of completion/bliss. ever since then, my health has been stabilizing. i took a break from tumblr/over-consuming, and just asked myself “what am i?” “who am i?”. i would let my thoughts go, attaching no meaning, nor identifying with them. i would observe them- in an almost manner of meditation. i started to feel lighter, as i no longer identified with the body. while doing such “exercises”, i found that i “tapped into the void” within minutes of doing so. it was so peaceful, and i had no urge to affirm- which even though my ego thinks my life is still far from perfect, i could care less.

i feel a sort of indifference to what used to seem problematic. i now understand, that there is no “convincing” myself of something, when i am already it. i’ve been “documenting” what works best for me- just because i might have brain damage lol, but what i’ve found is when i am in full acceptance of both the desirable and undesirable, it happens instantly- or within a day. just now, i noticed my collar bone feeling fleshy or the skin around it inflamed- which was one of the major symptoms i faced when i had cancer. my whole collar bone to face just puffed up like a pufferfish. in that moment, i knew who i TRULY was- I AM. God. i didn’t care if my collar bone wasn’t prominent or not- i just KNEW that it was normal, and prominent. literally not even a minute later, i touched my collar bone while scratching my neck- AND THE SWELLING WAS COMPLETELY GONE, IT WAS JUST BONE.

So, for me- what worked was knowing there was no conviction necessary, i am already everything, the good and the bad. thoughts and day dreams have no effect on me unless i identify with them- or personally give them power. no effort, and just complete ease and bliss. the past, and future do not exist- and only affect the present, when identified. indifference was the “biggest” aha moment for me.

I realized, each time I affirmed/thought of something- then let go, and gave it no more attention, it appeared (instantly). for problems, i just forgot of it. i disregarded it- and then bam. gone. since my last experience with the void, i knew since then that everything was perfect with my relationship regarding the void. i always wake up in it, everything perfect for me- i’m aware, blah blah blah. and that’s how it’s “manifested!”. i don’t even think of it any more. ever since that indifference feeling/knowing came- life has been soooo different.

during times of meditation, or of just observing my thoughts and letting them pass- is when i truly began to understand non-dualism. that’s when the knowing came for me. taking accountability and responsibility, and knowing everything is as temporary as night and day. i still have to “fix” my problems with school and university, but i know that is my ego talking. it is already done because i am it. i’m (my ego) is a bit worried if i will properly fix my problems, but after proving what lester, and all the info i’ve consumed (from blog to blog), i truly understand that there is no problem until i think i have a problem. my problems are as an easy fix as my situation with my collar bone.

i’ve also “fixed” my relationship with my mother, and grandparents. they now truly have realized the abuse that is in my household, and are 100% into supporting me, and protecting me. i was so surprised, because they would usually just ignore it and normalize it. especially my mother. all i’ve wanted was my mom- to actually be a mom. and now she is. even though there were moments where my ego wanted to cuss her out and identify as having a bad mother, i thought of it as nonsense, and now our entire dynamic has changed. i can’t really get into it without trauma dumping- but it’s been my wish since i was a child. she has truly changed and grown. even my therapist was shocked, and happy for me! i’ve been trying to “manifest” a change in her, for about 3 years- and after applying little to no effort, through what i’ve mentioned above- everything has changed.

(also “manifested” appearance changes, health to be completely perfect, my safety, perfect grades (literally all A+ or straight up 100%s loll, my pets health, and many other things. literally we all “manifest” our entire day just by identification)

i believe, or what has been true personally to me, about the reason behind the struggle of changing anything- even after seeing confirmation of one’s true power, is because it wasn’t a “big” enough accomplishment. they/me have put problems and “desires” on a pedestal- thinking it will be a varying degree to alter, than let’s say the weather. but it is all the same. everything holds the same balance. it is just the ego that convinces you that it does not. we literally shape our “today” and “tomorrow” from memory and identification. when i’ve thought/knew what my tomorrow would be- that is how it was.

i just wanted to say thank you to your kind response to my ask, last time. i know that it wasn’t easy- and i’m so sorry if i’ve caused anyone to feel any negative emotions. i also wanted to say thank you to your- and every other bloggers dedication to helping anons, and continuously posting the truth. you, and adasdisciple (idk how to do the @ thing, im so sorry!!!) as well as, 4dkelly something (i hope they may see this! i apologize for not remembering your user😭) have aided in ways not even professionals, or other bloggers have. my life has done a true 180- and i know it’s only going to get better from here on out. i appreciate everyone’s kindness to my first post, it truly warmed my heart to see so many people sympathizing with my ask. not many people have reacted with such genuine sweetness. thank you so much!! i’m fr feeling on top of the world 😋

wow! i'm so proud of you!!! speechless tbh!

i'll tag them here for you: @adadisciple, @4dkellysworld

IM SORRY I HAVENT UPDATED YOU I KNOW PPL DO THESE KINDS OF THINGS BUt i genuinely didn't have the time like the past few days have been insane!!!! this is gonna be kinda long asfhsksl

basically i read your posts over and over and i would have a new epiphany each time, i started to feel light as a feather and this boundless feeling came to me!! when i started feeling more confident in myself i stopped coming here looking for answers and just kept focusing on "I AM", nothing else!! i didn't try to get anything like you said but started feeling myself as the reality of all that is,, everything felt easy and peaceful until I BECAME AWARE i had no questions or doubts anymore. now listen after this my world completely shifted!! i still feel like i'm living in a dream. i kind of forgot what i looked like ? i stopped thinking abt the body entirely, i was basically functioning automatically and NOTHING disturbed me. life happened around me but all i was focused on was feeling myself as the witness, unaffected. and then on the 2nd or 3rd day a thought came to me abt the body again,, i was so unbothered with everything that i thought "eh maybe i can start functioning as a body again, it doesn't affect me at all now anyhow". i didn't purposely identify with any appearance i just went to shower that night and when i looked in the mirror, i looked exactly how i always wished to look. and it felt COMPLETELY NORMAL to look like that. I mean of course it did we are pure awareness but what shocked me wasn't that because i was already completely indifferent,, but how fast and easy everything happened. things started showing up out of nowhere, i am totally uninvolved in the illusion of an external world and everything still caters to me. i mean it, i do nothing at all and everything happens around me exactly how i want it meanwhile i don't even think on it. i got fired from my job after that??? but i literally couldn't care less, i was living fully in the moment and nothing could break my stride. now guess what... the next day... probably even less than 24 hrs i had a brand reach out for a collab. like WHAT? influencer life here i come 💀 truth be told i don't care about that either now that i've reached such a high state of being. i still have a little bit to go since i don't feel completely fearless and desireless but i am determined to achieve all you've said and i won't stop until i do. for now i just feel in love with everything and everyone and ecstatic to live all the time. THANK YOU ADA THANK U SM i love you most of all. i can keep updating you if it's alright in the dm?? i have no one else to talk to about this and it just makes me so happy to know that i finally "cracked the code" after years in this community 🥲

wow... i am so proud of you. you're just coming back home to your self, it will become the most natural thing to live like this before you know it. ♡

yes, of course you can update me, it's only up from here!

Hiii Ive done the I Am affirmations and these are my results! I saw someone post on Reddit how they’d seen an amazing shift using I AM and other affirmations that I wanted to try as well. I was not only affirming through the day but sleeping on the feeling/knowing at night as well. I Also meditated but I really enjoy it so that was easy!

During the 4th day I could feel the shift, I became so indifferent to the 3D, you know when someone is like really calm that it’s scary? That’s how I felt. Like nothing phased me. I constantly would here and see people say that we’re God and that we create our realities blah blah, but that day it really clicked. Nothing is in my way, I can have everything I want.

I was at work this day and usually I hate being there but today I knew it was different. I got yelled at by a customer for a return and I was like whatever. During the end of the transaction I firmly stated “I AM” and the lady apologized for her behavior saying “I didn’t know what got into me” like right after I had affirmed. We only get 10 minute breaks but I was gone for damn near 30. I affirmed my managers wouldn’t say anything because “I AM” and when I came out the only thing they asked was “how my break was”. I also got my food and drink for free at the cafe downstairs just cause the barista felt like it.

My manifestations are instant there really isn’t a time lag. But that depends on me really, some things I’d prefer if I woke up and they were there rather then appearing in front of me, and other things I’ve revised instantly. I feel like I’m in the constant void? If I close my eyes and affirm for like less then a minute everything is still and I can’t hear anything around me. Like I’m really just consciousness with no physical body. It’s been like 2 months since then and I’m living my best life.

What I’ve manifested:

-clear skin

-desired Face and body

-Money+ a job in fashion that I really like

-money for my siblings and parents

-both my older sister having their college degrees as well as my degree(I dropped out of college like freshman year)

-revised that my parents were never smokers and are in perfect health

-my eyesight; used to be negative -6.5 but I don’t need to wear contacts anymore

-dental health, got rid of my cavities cause I hate the dentist

-moved to NYC/ got my desired apartment

-payed off all debts/ having no debts at all

-little everyday things like free food, drinks, parking, free flowers, literally super cute everyday things

-A new passport because I lost my old one

-shifting; I’d been trying to shift for damn near 2 years but I’ve finally been able to go to many of my DRs

-being able to manipulate time(slowing it down, speeding it up)

-dream wardrobe

there’s probably more but I can’t think of anything else. Just know that there isn’t anything I’m lacking or want rn, I have everything I can think of 😭.

omg this is absolutely amazing i love it!! especially knowing that everytime we are saying I am we are declaring we are god it's literally such powerful statement in just 2 words i absolutely love this success story and i hope it motivates y'all just as much as it did me 🥰

How to shift realities from someone who regularly does

Hii! I am pretty new to the Tumblr shifting community and I didn’t really plan on posting anything but after browsing around a bit, I kind of wanted to give my two cents on shifting. I used to be active in the Amino community back then but then I took a break to focus on myself. Some time passed since then and I have been shifting pretty regularly now. And after looking through some posts, I wanted to share some things to maybe help others.

Disclaimer: I fully believe shifting is personal and should be tailored to you. What works for me might not work for you and that’s okay! However, I would be very glad if this helped someone. Also excuse how I explain some things. Since I just got back, I’m not very caught up with new shifting terminology so I’m just going to explain how I understand it instead.

You are only consciousness. That is what you are and what you will always be. There will never be any reality, circumstances, doubts, fears, or anything tied to you unless you allow it to. You as consciousness, your only role is to experience and be conscious of things. So as you become conscious of new things, you shift.

As consciousness, your natural state is the void state. You only experience reality when you take on a vessel, which is your body. So through these vessels, you experience reality. And as you live in these vessels, you will encounter its emotions, doubts, and thoughts. This is why people say you are not your doubts or fears, because truly you are not. You are only experiencing it through the vessel. They are not your own, but the vessel’s.

So to shift realities, you simply decide a reality then become conscious of it. Literally just that, you decide and then become. There’s nothing more or less to it I swear.

I think the reason why many people fail to comprehend this is because they had been putting in so much effort that they couldn’t believe how actually effortless it really is. I think it’s because they try to force it without understanding how it just comes naturally. Shifting shouldn’t be about taking control but rather just be. I see people asking how this and how that and am I doing it right, and I just want to say forget all about that and focus on just being.

You had always just been consciousness experiencing reality through a vessel your whole life. You had always made a choice on a reality then proceeded to become aware of it. So now decide on that reality that you want and just be conscious of it. That’s all it is. If it helps, help yourself understand that you are only consciousness. Remind yourself throughout the day, when you experience this vessel’s doubts, or before you sleep. Truly understand that you are not tied down by anything because you are literally just consciousness.

If you question why you should listen to me, it is because I was in your shoes before. For a really long time, I really thought that shifting is just not something I could do and that it was all just an inside joke. I was at my all time low and I just didn’t know what to think or believe anymore. Yet, here I am, shifting as regularly as I sleep. That being said though, I don’t want you to idolize me or envy me. Don’t idolize a consciousness when you are literally one as well and can do anything I can.

I hope this post was understandable. I’m not much of an explainer but I tried my best.

I have been sitting in silence as much as possible. I am at work which causes me to stay away from home for over a week or 2 at a time in someone else’s home and they watch the news all damn day so it’s something I’m have in my surroundings 80% of the time I’m here. But I couldn’t care less because I just block it out now I know everything is a choice.

However, I decided to take at least 5 mins every hour to sit in silence (sometimes with the loud ass news in the back ground) and be aware of having no thoughts. Sometimes there are thoughts that don’t want to stop, especially in the morning. But I am the observer/witness of the thoughts so I don’t allow it to bother me.

Anywho… As I have been doing this I have literally had thoughts, visual and verbal and they literally happen the next day.

This has been happening every single day. I’m losing count of the things that are happening. I’ve come to realise the truth that internal imagination and external imagination are literally the same thing. There is no separation. Life is just a very vivid lucid dream on a serious level. It’s no joke.

I have to be aware of what thoughts I’m having as I truly know that they will come to pass. But I’ve decided to relieve any stress of thoughts showing up in the external imagination.

I stay aware of 80-90% of my thoughts and differentiate the thoughts by “labelling” them, “Passing thoughts” and “Experiential thoughts” so that any intruding thoughts of things I don’t want to experience don’t “manifest” into the external imagination because they really will at this point😅.

It’s all very easy and effortless. Sitting in silence is the best feeling ever, there’s nothing better now. And I look forward to what experiential thoughts I experience next.

Also, I always knew time was an illusion, but damn… Time really does what I want it to do. If I become aware that time is going fast, it does. If I become aware that time is going slow or that I want it to go fast or slow, it does. Sometimes 5 minutes feels like 1 minute. 2 hours feels like 15 minutes. (Which is great because it gets me home from work quicker😅)

So above, so below is real. It’s all just awareness. All you will ever need is awareness.

Thought I’d share this because I felt like it.

I shared this as well in an ask last night that I deleted; as I detached everything that came into my awareness — things my friends would talk about that Sofia never had/thought possible experiencing were happening no matter what they were, good or bad — if they were brought into my awareness, they happened. And very quickly just like you said, the same or the next day. At that point I would say a mental "fuck you" to anyone who was in the mood to share negative things 😭

The more I lost the sense of who 'I' was, the more receptive I was to everything. I would exert no effort to make anything happen, (why would I want food poisoning to happen?) but since I listened to my friend (and no, didn't think or contemplate it happening to Sofia) I brought it to "reality".

Lester talks about it too, about driving with his friend once and his friend talking about eye problems and him (even though not even focused because he was tired) gets it right then, he traces the problem back to where it originates (remembers his friend talking about it & him hearing it) and lets it go & his eyes are fine again.

You learn to control it ofc^ until you can only experience what you want. But I'm so happy you shared this as well, last night I deleted mine bc I didn't want people to spiral over every thought coming to fruition 😭😭 YOU CAN FIX IT. If you can demonstrate something, you can also make it vanish. You're never stuck in anything. Everything is thought.

The 5 senses are a lot more limited than you think 🤯🤔

Lester Levenson said "you're trying to express infinity through a tiny ego, and it hurts."

Yes it does hurt, it's extremely uncomfortable! And here's why.

Growing up, toddlers are taught object permanence, meaning that whether an object can be sensed or not, it has no impact on it's existence. Before learning this, for example, the toddler's parent may leave the room, and now the toddler is stressed out and crying because now the parent doesn't exist to them. For the toddler, the only things that exists are the items in the room. This is why object permanence is taught, so you can know that things still exist even if you can't sense them with the 5 senses.

See how the 5 senses limit you? Your ego looks around at its surroundings and assumes that it doesn't have whatever it wants, but does it even see the full picture? The ego is stressed out, depressed, angry, whatever negative emotion you can think of, and it becomes like the toddler all over again.

"I can't see it, it doesn't exist!"

How can the ego really know if it doesn't exist? It's view is limited to whatever is directly surrounding it, such as the TV or couch, or whatever is in the same room! When there's a whole world, a whole universe out there that it's unaware of.

When you place so much importance on "seeing things physically" you've identified with ego and not as the limitless, infinite consciousness who already has everything and already is everything! Whatever your ego is experiencing right now is so small and insignificant and is literally ONE possibility out of billions, trillions, an infinite amount.

Are you really going to stress out over 1 in a billion 🤔

You don't desire the things as much as you desire the freedom from needing the things.

What you want the most is to stop needing, stop lacking. That is why you are here, seeking to find yourself. You want to do away with all those suffocating feelings, you want to do away with everything that stops you from truly experiencing and enjoying life

You brought yourself here to free yourself. You can have, because you already do. You are here to realize that. The things are yours. The things are YOU.

Hi! I have a question, I know there's no such thing as continuity so how do I stop recreating the same world/dream over and over? Obviously I'm doing something wrong bc I keep assuming I've let go of all attachments to the world and Vanessa just to wake up right back in the same world with Vanessa lmao

An assumption that you've let go is not enough; you actually have to let go. I can think forever "I don't think I'm Sofia anymore" yet here I am, being Sofia.

Forget and be disinterested in her completely like she doesn't exist to you. The way you feel about me or another stranger is how I feel about Sofia, she's not me. She's just another creation which I can choose to experience or not. Attachment to your ego means you still think that's what you are so you continue to express that.

Moving on completely like you would move on from a thought which arises like "Oh that person has nice pants" is how you stop the cycle. The thought dissolves two seconds later and your attention is on something else, you never go back to the thought again. That's how another creation happens, your mind moves on onto something else.

*You* are being a different thought. You do not think "I am Lara", you're being her and there are no thoughts that arise that you could be Sofia, or if they come you disergard because you know not to be this stranger like you know you have a phone in your hand.

Again, this is not a technique. It's not lying to yourself about being someone different in order for something to happen. You can't get anything and this should really settle into your mind to demonstrate all these things or you'll continue to try to get through Vanessa, ignorant of the fact that that's what you're doing.

This permissive new is not really new. It is but a new attitude of the old. The really new obliterates the old completely.

This ego is an idea that you keep attaching yourself to. You don't think about letting go, YOU DO. You move on like from it like you did from the dream you had last night.

I know myself by being myself. As you know yourself to be a man by being one. You do not keep on reminding yourself that you are a man. It is only when your humanity is questioned that you assert it. Similarly, I know that I am all. I do not need to keep on repeating: 'I am all, I am all'. Only when you take me to be a particular, a person, I protest. As you are a man all the time, so I am what I am — all the time. Whatever you are changelessly, that you are beyond all doubt. - Nisargadatta

i just had a HUGE understanding moment. i know that to people who already understood this, what i'm about to say is gonna be like "umm thats just basic knowledge, how did you not get that", BUT HEAR ME OUT!

i got so caught up on wanting to materialize and seeing "successes" physically, and i didn't truly understand nor believe when blogs would say that "i have what i want NOW" (because i didn't see what i wanted) but now it just clicked. as awareness, we do create instantly, we "have" instantly, by being aware. ego obviously doesn't see materializations, but not because you don't have it! you do have it. you are not ego which is literally why ego does not see it.

my mistake was the way i was so attached to ego that i straight up disregarded the most important thing which is to NOT IDENTIFY WITH EGO. everytime ego didn't see something i wanted, i took that as ME and was aware of not seeing what i wanted. i now realize that, because i am awareness, the statement "you already have it now" is absolutely true because... well the moment you're aware of something, it exists.

so when you think, "oh but i don't see it", that shows why thoughts ARE EGOS ONLY. because of course the ego doesn't see it or have it, ego is not awareness. you (awareness) have your "materialization". you don't see it because that "you" (in the red) that doesn't have/see it is really just ego, who of course doesn't see it because they aren't the awareness that has instantly. thinking you don't see it is literally just the ego's thoughts that you're observing. and if you take ego as you, then you won't be able to see anything cuz you're identified with the ego who doesn't see anything. if you're thinking about a cupcake falling out of the sky, YOU'RE AWARE OF THAT, so you can't say you don't see it materialized. if you truly didn't see it, you wouldn't be aware of such a thing. but when you look through egos eyes and think "i don't see a cupcake falling out of the sky" its because the ego is not really you. they dont become aware of something, they're literally the product of you being aware of something.

again ik this is literally the most BASIC knowledge, but i just feel proud of myself for understanding this because i was contradicting myself for the longest time by always wondering why i never materialized. by always not believing blogs when they say "you already have it now" because i took the ego as myself, i observed ego not seeing the "materialization" and took it like "well ego doesn't see it, so i don't have it" (which ofc only identified myself with ego more and more)

“they dont become aware of something, they're literally the product of you being aware of something.” wow. spot on. welcome to the dream 🫶

What I have told you is now fully present in your Consciousness. Are you convinced that all is Brahman, as I have told you? Is there any doubt still in your mind?

If you have not followed, I will tell you again. All of this world appearance is only Life-Energy, Chaitanya. Everything, including your body, is Brahman. One who is convinced of this should never have duality in his mind such as "I" and "you." Really, this duality does not exist. When "I" is gone, that which remains is the state of Brahman. There is no duality of "me" and "you" from the beginning. Whatever you see with your eyes is a form. It is seen by you, and that is not your Self. When it is experienced that something is not your form, then you become formless. Naturally, the notion of "you" will disappear along with the sense of "I." This sense of "I" is the ego, but as your form is nullified, that ego also disappears. Unless there is some form, the ego does not have any base. Without a form, there is no place for it. Now you have become formless as you were originally. There is nothing that can be tied to the formless, nor is there any way to bind it. The formless always remains free from bondage. It has no bondage. That is why it is called unattached, and egoless. Now, the meditation, the meditator, and the object of meditation are all gone. If the meditator is not in existence, who is there to be meditated upon? When one knows this, he has no karmic bondage.

Action is the activity of Illusion and it belongs to the individual, the jiva. It is the jiva's concern to think, "I will get benefit out of this action," or "I will get some auspicious things." Good and bad are all part of the Illusion. For a man of Self-Knowledge there is neither good nor bad. Who will do the work when no benefit is desired? Action is meant for getting some benefit. Who is the entity that receives the benefit? That which was the jiva has gone, and he has become Brahman. The customer has gone. The owner has remained. He is whole, total, complete. There is nothing wanting in him. As long as one is proud of one's actions, he must be considered to not be certain about the Self. He still has doubt. Knowledge with doubt is false. Since you are not certain that you are yourself God I have told you this. When all of the Illusion is basically false, what harm is there if there is a multitude of false things in it? When everything is false or untrue, where is the truth in it? And what is wrong in the Illusion, if the "I" is proved false? Both heaven and hell are false. It is all nothing but imagination.

Nothing can be equal to Self-conviction. When this Self-conviction is truly established, that is Paramatman. Self-conviction should not waver at all, it should be unmoved. That is the Almighty God. Unwavering conviction is God. By conviction, further conviction is developed, and finally tremendous power is achieved. Self-conviction should increase. If it is wavering it is of no use. While there is no steady Self-conviction a huge meteoric catastrophe is going on, which is our own imagination.

There must not be any intention to prove true, that which is not true. The conviction that you are the Self should be made stronger. The fall from the Self is the worst fall of all. It is necessary that you should have very strong conviction that you are the Self. A great Brahmin once said, "Until the Sun accepts my offering, he will not set." The story goes like this: It was evening. A Brahman who was well versed in the Vedas and was a great ascetic, was asleep. As it was evening and his wife tried to awaken him saying, "The sun is about to set, the right time of performing sandhya (prayers) will be missed." He said, "Let me sleep for some more time. The sun will not set so long as I do not get up." This was his actual experience. The body is but our shadow. You should not be proud of the body. That is why a man who has realized Brahman has not one iota of respect for rituals. All rituals are performed because of fear. Only those who are afraid perform various rituals. Loss is the father and the mother of fear. The fear is that one will suffer a loss. If one is having no fear why should he perform any actions? Fear is the reason for all actions.

One who is fearless has neither fear nor karma. The fearless man is beyond the body. He is formless. Karma is born out of doubt. Doubt is the seed of karma. To be doubtless means to be seedless. If roasted rice is sown, it does not grow. Similarly, karma does not give any gain or loss to one who is wise. When the Self is realized as formless and bodiless, God is known to be formless. Such a Realized One, is himself formless. Formless is his town and formless is his house. He is his own food and maintenance. Everything is the Self. This is the achievement of Reality that is imperishable.

Sri Sadguru Siddharameshwar Maharaj.