Nigel, You’re The One I Meant.

Everything is too loud today. My skin feels too tight. My head won’t stop running in circles.

I wish it was possible to turn everything off for a while.

Hey Adam, I had a pretty good view last night! I was busy during sunset so I couldn't see the seven planets later, but I did see this at least.

You captured Orion’s Belt very clearly, with Alnitam, Alnilak, and Mintaka lined up in the center. Below them is Rigel, one of the brightest stars in the sky.

I also see a faint streak across the middle—possibly a satellite passing through while the picture was taken. And on the right, the Pleiades cluster is visible. It’s an open star cluster about 444 light-years away, meaning the light in your photo has been traveling since the early 1600s. By now, some of the stars you captured may not even exist anymore. Like Dr. Lecter told me ‘some of the stars that appear brightest to us have already died’.

Though, stars don’t ‘die’ the way we do.

They simply vanish.

Thank you, Tonny.

Beth was over today. She took this picture while I was reading and said I should post it.

So I am.

Are you a jealous person?

Jealousy is irrational. It serves no practical function, and yet, I think if I care about someone enough, I might experience a version of it.

Not in an aggressive way, but… I wouldn’t like the idea of being replaceable. I‘ve been told I get ‘sulky‘.

Oh, Adam. Beth didn’t deserve you, not by a long shot. I hope you’re doing okay. You always have a place to stay at mine if you ever need it.

- Duncan.

Thank you, Duncan.

I appreciate that you always welcome me.

I think I want to be alone in my apartment for now. I miss familiarity.

Do you even skoke?

Do I Skoke ?

https://archiveofourown.org/works/65369347/chapters/168209467

Here’s chapter one! I kept it pretty short and simple for the start. Hope y’all enjoy!

Hey guys!

I know this is probably terrible timing, but I did want to let y’all know I’ll be taking a small break

or at least I don’t anticipate it to be long. My mental health hasn’t been the best, and I’ve got a lot of medical stuff I gotta take care of rn. So sorry to let y’all down like this. I’m super grateful for you guys, and I’ll do my best to be back soon.

Note: Some good news is that I’ll still be continuing my AO3 story tho! Since I only really plan to posting once a week, I think it won’t be too much on me. I also haven’t posted the link for it on here yet ’cause I’m still working through some stuff in chapter one.

Anyway, love y’all and stay safe 🤍

I have memorized every possible answer. I have practiced in the mirror. I know the words. But my hands still shake when I think about it.

I don’t understand why. If I know what I need to say, why is my heart racing? Why does my throat close? Why does my body not listen to logic?.

Yes, I do have a comfort show.

It’s ‘Cosmos: A Personal Voyage’.

I think I might just re-watch it today, maybe it’ll temporarily help my brain calm down.

Nothing feels real anymore.

EVERBODY always lies to me and I am stuck feeling like an idiot because I care about honesty. Why does nobody ever mean what they say? What even is the point in saying anything then?.

This is the same anon that asked about nebulous.io,

Errr well i didn’t exactly like much about it because most of my memories playing it as a child is that i was blackmailed by my older sibling into doing so, but i did like the spacy names and skins, though back then as a kid i did infact not know that andromeda was a galaxy and to me it was just that one annoying bot with a funky name that kept eating me

I didn’t really understand that Andromeda was a galaxy at the time either.

As a child, I just thought it was an interesting name. I was more focused on avoiding that bot, actually. I got frustrated after a while.

Looking back, I realize there were a lot of things I didn’t know about, but I think I’ve gotten better at understanding those things now.