sluttynoobz

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everything, basically

thank god !!

martin in the 4/20 vid was stressing me out so bad 😭 he’s in the nightmare rotation

i hate when people think i’m being fr. like ive never been serious a day in my life.. too full of whimsy and fun

the jump perverts does from “your love is sinful and your sex is damned and your pleasure is a stain on god” to “i lost someone that actually matters to me because i have carnal desires for something more evil and disembodied than anything in this world and now i am left alone with addictions to things that can’t love me back” is so.

there are no new or old parts of myself. just the parts i’ve found and the parts i’ve known. i’ve never not been myself. every part of me is fragmented across my life; waiting in excitement to be found. i’ll always be them, just in a different way.

i wish i had a mature sense of discernment in terms of knowing the difference between some sort of yearning from comfort from a man and romantic attraction. i don’t really feel like i’ve ever felt for men the way i’ve felt for women. but i can’t lie, from time to time and i crave so deeply some validation from a man. my father left fist shaped craters in my heart and soul and i feel that it effects me consciously and subconsciously every waking moment of my life. i want to be hugged in safe arms and comforted in a way ive never known. conversely even thinking of physical or emotional closeness from a man/vulnerability to a man perturbs me. but those are just two sides of the same coin. this deep level of detachment from what should have been a fatherly figure has caused a lot of confusion in knowing if i even am romantically attracted to men or if i do just want attention; to know i mean something to someone so i can mean something to myself.

I've loved you in ways you'll never know, you only learned my name a year ago

Me to all my friends

my first mistake is that i tried to see what the slushies are up to on tumblr. it’s all just hamzah x reader smut. get a grip you filthy harlots >:(