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Jules: Hey, can I ask you something.
Isabelle: yea, okay. what’s up?
Jules: Are you straight?
Isabelle: What?
Jules: I don't know, last night I really felt like you were hitting on me, I could feel you looking at me when I was with Sofia.
Isabelle: I just felt bad I guess. every time you would try to kiss her, she would deflect or straight up deny you. You told me she hadn't kissed you in two weeks. I kept thinking that you deserve someone who will kiss you whenever you want or need it. Someone who’ll truly want you and know it with every bone in their body.
I could just imagine myself next to you in that limo instead of her. Imagine myself kissing you, all our friends there just knowing and it being normal. Not pretending, for your sake, like they didn't see you get rejected by your own girlfriend. I could see how when we were passing the smoke from one persons mouth to another, I would ruin the chain and everyone would get kind of mad. But it would be okay. It would be okay because I would be kissing you. Because when leaning in to blow the smoke to your mouth, I wouldn't be able to hold it. I would sigh, the smoke would spread around our faces. I would lean in and our lips would begin their game.
And then I remembered I was not out. Could not be out. And none of that was possible.
*written by me
* Of course i would get to say all that in my fantasy, bc its just that, but irl I couldn’t.
*not actual names
A little gift/ preview for @freezer-bride-your-sweet-divine
(Thank you for your support in navigating tumblr and your endless feedback, I REALLY appreciate it)
This piece will eventually be part of my series,
https://archiveofourown.org/series/4163446
Or maybe it won't, but I felt like it was a waste to scrap it entirely!
It’s not that Bruce doesn’t love his sons.
He does.
Fiercely.
To the point of agony.
To the point of madness.
But they are sons.
They are legacy and reflection and consequence.
Dixie was origin.
Dixie was genesis.
Dixie was the very first moment he knew what it meant to live for someone outside of himself.
The moment that reshaped the architecture of his soul, rerouted the pathways of his cold, calculating heart.
Dixie didn’t make him Batman.
She made him Bruce, in the softest, most staggering ways.
He can explain why the others matter.
Jason needed saving.
Tim needed purpose.
Damian needed undoing.
But Dixie?
Dixie needed nothing from him (except, maybe, understanding, the one thing he was never able to provide her with) and yet she became his everything.
She wasn't the best of them because she was flawless.
She was the best of them because she was HIS.
His In every ugly, broken, radiant piece.
She was never built to be a soldier, even if she learned to fight before she learned to laugh.
She was not meant to carry the burdens she bore, and yet…God, she CHOSE to.
She chose to carry them.
Her brothers.
Their world.
Him.
Always him.
Even when he failed her.
Especially when he failed her.
Bruce knows all of his sons.
He can break them down, read their patterns, identify every fracture in their psyches.
But Dixie? Dixie remained unreadable, unknowable, even being the one he has known for the longest time, even being the one whose bones were shaped just like the ones he has known since before his own birth, his mother's.
She was his daughter in a way the others could never be, not just by blood, not just by name, but in understanding.
She KNEW him.
She knew him in the way a mirror knows its subject.
In the way a grave knows its dead.
None of the boys have ever looked at him the way she did, like she could see every ruin inside him and still believed something beautiful lived there.
Jason rages at him.
Tim studies him.
Damian judges him.
Dixie forgave him (Dixie raged and she studied and she judged too, but in the end she forgave him, she ALWAYS forgave him).
Again.
And again.
And again.
And that was a terrifying, holy thing.
Because forgiveness, real forgiveness, from someone like her…it CHANGES people.
The boys push him.
She grounded him.
The boys rebel.
She resisted.
She defied with love, with laughter, with hands that mended what others destroyed.
She wasn't his soldier (even if he knows she often viewed herself that way).
She was his compass.
He is not a man of poetry, but she made him one in the quiet moments.
Made him remember what lullabies sounded like.
Made him believe in softness.
Made him ache.
And he knows…it’s not that his sons are less.
It’s that Dixie was more.
More Bruce.
More memories.
More mystery.
More herself, in ways that none of them ever dared to be.
His sons always belonged to the world. She always belonged to him, not by ownership, not by right, but by that old, unshakable bond formed in the abyss between his birth and hers, between his grief and her grief, two wounded things clinging to each other like breath.
She was the child he never asked for, the one who became his first everything and the one who saved them all.
How could anyone ever compare to that?
They couldn't.
They never will.